Friday Fav - Taking Comfort In.

Happy Friday, All. It's another week down, and another week that I'm still in disbelief. I'm having a tough time getting through this pain and accepting my new reality. I'm having a tough time not having my Pops here.

Through the last week, I've put the blog aside and found comfort in writing in my journal. I've gone to work, but taken comfort in knowing I don't need to be 100% present. I've cried more than I ever have, but taken comfort in knowing this is okay. I've relied on my family, friends and Mike more than I thought I would need, but I've taken comfort in their listening and support.

I've also taken comfort in this song, The Wailin' Jennys - "Bird Song." If I think about or attempt to play the songs that my Pops listened to I immediately break down. This song brings a sense of comfort knowing this is my Pops. Nothing put a bigger smile on his face than watching the seasons change, the sun wake him up, counting the stars at night, and asking if I took time to see the beauty in geese soar the sky (yes geese ha). 

Today's Friday Fav is all about Taking Comfort In. . . In Whatever Makes You Smile.

Friday Fav - My Pops

Today's Friday my world is turned upside down and shattered. Last week, I got off the phone with my Pops, talked about my weekend plans, and said, "I love you." Today, I am saying goodbye in a way I never wanted to know. My Pops passed away on Monday, and since this day and for the rest of my days I'm not sure how I'll get by without him.

I wanted to write today's post, while crying and facing a world that looks nothing like I remember, because My Pops bought me my first journal, which lead to 10 other notebooks, which eventually turned into this blog. My Pops checked in on me weekly and asked, "Did you write in your journal today?" I promised him one day I would wrap up all of my journals, drop them in his lap, and say, "Happy Birthday!"He loved living through the adventures of my brother and I, and always knew that one day, when I had kids or when I wanted to look back on a time in my life, I'd have a way to remember it.

My Pops wouldn't want me to write about my heartache, this nightmare, or the fact that I've lost my best friend, but somewhere I know he's looking down on me, giving me a hug to get through today, and asking, "Did you write your Friday Fav?"

Today's Friday Fav is to My Pops. 

I can't write a lot right now, because my heart is hurting. I can't talk a lot right now, because I feel like I'm going to vomit. I can't think about this right now, because I'm missing him and can only think about him.

But, I can think of what I learned and fell in love with over this week. I learned life is tough and when you think about how you'll react when hear those awful words, or get that call, that your world freezes and you go into survival mode. I've had the worst week of my life, yet I've still walked on and have accomplished what's needed for today. I've learned that my Pops made me this way. He prepared me for anything. He believed in me and still does. I've also learned that while my Pops might not be here anymore, I secretly know he still is. I've already seen him in places, people and sounds. I've fallen in love with everyone who has ever been a part of his life. I am selfish to think, "He's mine," but he has been everyone's best friend. I've loved all of the stories that have come my way this week, just reminding me of the man he was and character he held. I've never loved my Pops more than I do today.

As I get ready for a funeral I never wanted to plan or attend, I just want to say thank you to everyone who has helped me through this, but most of all my Pops who has been with me the entire way.

I simply don't know what tomorrow or next year will look like without my Pops here, but I'm so thankful I've had the years and memories with him that I have today.

Pops, skidamarinkadinkadink .... I love you and miss you :( 

Friday Fav - Give Yourself a 30

Happy Friday, Folks! It's been awhile since I've been on here. Some days I consider putting this whole blog in the corner, but right now I know it's a temporary neglect due to my hectic work schedule. Soon I'll be back on track talking, I mean writing, your ear off :)

So what's been on my mind this last week? Well I've learned one thing during this crazy storm called "Juggling Work and Life" - You've gotta remind yourself that time for you might possibly be the best part of your day. I realize it sounds like something Dr. Phil would spit out, but when you have a few short minutes just for you, you really learn to love every second!

Back tracking a bit, girls are always asked, "How long does it take you to get ready?" I'm not sure why we're asked this, and don't really care unless it's some totem pole notch of honor. Sometimes I just want to reply, "long," and see where the conversation goes, but it's true. I don't take 3 hours, but I definitely can't fit everything into an hour. I wish there was some elaborate dress and golden tan that was the final product, but truly what takes so long is this little time that I take for me. Yup, every morning, no matter how late I'm running (okay sometimes this isn't true), I give myself a 30. Thirty-minutes of music listening, dancing, oatmeal eating, coffee sipping, tv watching, country music video singing, or simply just laying on the floor wishing I could crawl back into bed. I prefer to have 30 minutes of just me time, but if I've got company than I'm more than happy to share.

This week, in the midst of being busier than I can juggle, I've still stood by my "me time" and learned to really appreciate 30 minutes of breathing.

With today about to pick up, take over, and leave me wishing I had another 8 hours to work, I'm learning to love my "Give Yourself a 30" time more than ever.

Wishing you all a fabulous weekend, and whether it's tomorrow morning or the pain of Monday's a.m., try to give yourself a little break to do just what you love!

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